SUITE 16 ~ INDIVIDUAL RESPONSIBILITY: 03.2009

3/25/09

Falling part 1

Zeebra
Real name: Hideyuki Sakakura
Birth: 1971/4/2
Height: 178cm,5'10
Blood type: B
Favorite food: ankimo
Favorite brand of cigarette: Marlboro light

Formerly the legendary Jonan hustla rhyme of the Katana.
Seems to have lost his way recently,and now currently raps for teenage girls.
Has a half brother that goes by the stage name Sphere of Influence.
So all you young female fans out there that desperately want to know more about Zeebra even though he's married for the third time
I just saved you some effort,and told you some of his basic stats.
No reason for Zeebra to be here,
just wanted an excuse to post this comical ass pic of him.

Shina Junpei

I had originally assumed that Shina was a Korean man hiding underneath a Japanese name. (Zanichi)
It turns out that he's actually the older brother of Shina Ringo.
I should've known as both of them seem to be quite mysterious,and both bring in loads of flavour to their respective genres.
While listed as R&B Shina Junpei is more on that Jazz / gospel ish. (The real R&B sound. Though it should be noted that most so called "R&B" artisists from Japan tend to go for that mainstreamish club sound.)
One must wonder where the hell is he at. He hasn't dropped anything since last year.
I heard his house burnt down,so that's prolly why he hadn't released nothing new yet.

Kweon So Young
Not a good picture of her at all,but I couldn't find any website on the net that actually knew about her.
If you've seen Kweon, So Youngs C.O.C. Choice of Cinderella,than you already know why she's up here.
She was looking damn fly up in that video.
Music is aight,but she was banging off the charts with them solid good looks.
Although she's nowhere near as nice looking without the make up.
No matter though it's all good.
What is she doing now? Perhaps she should've gotten into some porn scandal like this one gasoo did way back.

Chika - Deeps AKA DPS

Link to unofficail fansite - http://hidepooh.hp.infoseek.co.jp/deeps.html
The sexy & cute girl from ko gal group Deeps also known as DPS -Not to be confused with an indie visual kei band known as DPS Dead Pop stars.-
Though some criticize her for being short 155cm.
Who gives a mad fuck? I mean I couldn't care less about a woman's height.

It's all bout the charisma & charm.(and big ol' butt & tits which she doesn't have,but what Chika has is good enough.)
Aight enough with the sexist remarks.... I still ask myself, what is Chika doing now?
All I have to add is she better watch out,because she has a lot of admirers...I being one of them.

Miu Sakamoto

Link to her website? -Not sure if it's official or not since back in the day it used to be her personal site. http://www.miuskmt.com/
The daughter of famous musician Ryuchi Sakamoto.
At first glance one would think she's another sexy R&B/pop bimbo,but in reality Miu actually follows her fathers footsteps,and actually creates real productive music.
Her voice is what probably differs her from the rest of the pack as she is a soprano.
I tell you part-nah this beauty has one angelic voice.
If she ever made a 2nd album I'd buy it on the spot.
Born in japan,but grew up in NY.
In fact Miu still lives in New York.
Probably the main reason why she doesn't really much sounds of euphoria to illuminate thy earlobes.
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Note: As you can see from this post. I was a terribly horrible writer back in the day. I wrote the same I spoke.

3/18/09

"Castle of the May Sigh Shimmering on the Pale Blue Water of the Moon Prism to the 4rth power"

Damn I feel like a pedo posting this ish up, but it's sailor fucking moon, the nostalgia.
I used to have a crush on Rei when I was a kid, now I look back & I'm like ew big ass animu eyes,

but at least teh real Rei is still pretty damn attractive.

They got a surprisingly cute chick to play as usagi.

I remember I first started watching the live action series, because one of the girls is the same breed as me. (Well, Mostly.)
http://www.soul-hunter.com/sailormoon/pgsm/actors/chiekokawabe.php
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chieko_Kawabe

Luna & Artemis still crack me up.

Sailor moon brings back memories. Hah hah in fact this post isn't about Sailor Moon at all!
It's a trojan horse for the NSFW Masked Rider.
(Most people who watch this shit only did so for the fags or the whores.
The plot was fairly interesting too, but that's just a plus.)
I remember I used to get up early every sunday to watch Kamen Rider. Simply because some of the chicks were hot.
http://tvarc.toei.co.jp/tv/agito/cast/akiyama.stm

She may look like donkeyshit in that picture, but she was a f'ng babe when you saw her in motion.
In fact she grew up to become a premier butt model, lol.

I haven't seen what happened to this chick since Kamen Rider Agito ended in early 2002.
(I didn't bother to look her up until yesterday evening while reading that post.)
I find it hilarious how the girl who I thought was so hot that I actually woke up every sunday morning to watch Kamen Rider just to see her.
Has grown up to become some slutty ass butt model.
Back in the day I used to imagine her in poses like that, now she has pics like that all over the internet...
She wasn't slutty at all in Kamen Rider. (And I still thought dirty thoughts of her.)

Damn, how the hell did I know she was gonna grow up into that?
Shit I'm getting too old.
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One more reason why Persona used to be the shit back in 1999.

ANIME HITLER!(0o<)/
Damn, why can't games be as fucking insane as they used to be back in the 90's early 2000's?
That game even made Osama Bin Laden jokes a yr. or two before 9/11.

I've had it with these fuckin' Hamsters on a plane! part 2

I usually don't write blog posts much , but I just had to write this joint up, because it was one of the weirdest fucking dreams that I ever had. This shit is even more fucked up then part one. Which was about a blonde midget bitch in Nike windbreakers with a passing resemblance to Gwen Stefani who kept calling me a five yr. old through 7 different dreams, until I finally punched her in the face.

I've had it with these fuckin' Hamsters on a plane! part 2

I just had the weirdest fucking dream. It was some cross over movie between Batman, & Fushigi Yugi.
I saw the dream from two points of view. One as the Chad grunger guy from Sailor Moon who bummed around the hot chick, Rei Hino's house. Coincidentally the "rei Hino" chick of this dream happened to be that
"We fought wars in Baghdad over her"

girl , who happened to be a fan of Rei Hino in real life.
The other pov as me. Just a mere random mothafucka who stayed over the night to watch the big premier of the movie that "that girl" starred in.(She was Miaka.)
Yes that's right she was in the Batman meets Fushigi Yugi movie. (Not what the film was actually called, as only fans of Fushigi Yugi would know that it's actually some fucked up crossover with Fushigi yugi.)

In the begining we see the Chad guy trying to make the moves on "that rei girl", and well just like Sailor Moon she shrugs him off every time with the Chad guy making a fool of himself, falling down the stairs, & shit.
A couple moments later my mom drops me off at their house, and I'm depicted as my 21 yr. old self, and I'm sporting my trademark mobster pimp look.
"that rei girl's" mom was represented as my aunt who has enormously huge fake nasty ass tits.
Hell, the mom was like the only woman who spoke to I in this entire dream.
Well anyway some typical ass anime shit happens between the people in the house, but then it starts to take a turn for the weird when the dream fast forwards 30 days into the future.

Chad is trying to deliver roses to "that rei girl" for valentines day, but he has a hard time finding her.
He eventually gets sucked up inside the toilet of "that rei girls" house, and finds himself in what looks like modern day Shibuya, but everybody is dressed up as if they just stepped out of a fucking time machine, because they're all wearing kimonos, and shit.
Chad's like "where the fuck am I?"
He runs up some stairs leading up to a bridge walk way in a nearby mall, and runs into "that Rei girl".
Her eye's widen, and exasperatedly asks him "What are you doing here?" "How'd you get here?"
Chad is like "I, I have no idea." "I just wanted to bring these to you" (Referring to his bouquet of roses.)
"That rei girl" looks at the roses, shakes her head, and calls him an idiot.
Might I add, that during this portion of the dream "the rei chick" is actually dressed up as Miaka, and even has her hair worn up like Miaka.

She pretty much looked exactly like Miaka, except with dark blackish brown hair.
Some stupid ass song comes on, probably a theme from Fushigi Yugi. I wouldn't know, because I never seen Fushigi Yugi before. I've watched a couple of episodes when my pops held a job in Japan, but hell if I know what the hell was going on in them.
I never know what the fuck is going on in these stupid anime shows. I do like anime, but only the badass anime like Golgo 13, Ninja Scroll, Basilisk, shit that contains plots that actually make some fucking sense.

We're then treated to a montage of events that Chad & Rei girl go through in this imaginary Modern japan world where mothafuckas are still geared up in Hakamas, and all the women were wearing loosed fitted kimonos with no sashes like it was some fucking period era pinku eiga.
In this montage we see the young couple jumping over explosions, kissing while falling free fall in midair in the middle of the fucking sky, HAh hah. I even saw one scene it was the stereotypical Asian melo drama scene where they both attempt to kill each other in the middle of a mothafucking ocean to some horrible asian love music, during a rainy ass stormy night, yet their hair still managed to look perfect, and they kept telling each other "I love you". It was fucking nauseating.
WHO WRITES THIS SHIT!? Was what I kept saying to myself.
The couple were doing all sorts of crazy ass shit in this montage that them dumb mothafuckas do in their dumbass animes.

The montage finally ends ,and the dream gets back to me. Waiting at the house. Doing jack shit, being bored as fuck.
A couple hours later the movie premier begins.
I was came there with the main star woman, but we didn't speak to each other at all.
Well, nothing substantial that I could remember at least.
SO the movie starts.
It's Batman, by the fucking Wachowski bros.
Yes, you could already imagine how that shit turned out.
It was like Speed Racer. Bright ass animu colours that make your eyes bleed, and all these random ass asian people, who you don't even know who the fuck they are, and to make matters worse.
Their role in the movie didn't even make any fucking sense.
Just like Rain, & his asian crew in Speed Racer.

I'm like WTF! What the FUck is this shit!
When I watch a movie, I expect to see a mothafucking plot. Not this random ass shit with Batman fighting crime, and then for some unknown reason we cut to these scenes of random ass asian people. Doing whatever the fuck people think asians do.
(Kung fu, Drift racing,import models, breakdancing, typical ass shit that Asian Americans do.
Fuck Asian American culture. Asian American culture sucks, because half the shit they do isn't even Asian to begin with.)
Here's the twist though. The asian scenes were actually the Fushigi Yugi part of the movie.
In fact that montage scene, and the part when Chad gets sucked down a toilet were actually part of the Batman movie.
Don't even bother to ask me what the fuck Fushigi yugi had to do with Batman, because whoever wrote the mothafucking script needs to get fucking shot for this abortion of a screenplay.
IT MADE NO FUCKING SENSE AT ALL!
The movie sucked so much ass that most people who came to see the movie actually walked out before it even ended.

Even the lead actress, the girl who I supposedly came with walked out before the movie ended.
Batman was supposed to get sucked into The Fushigi Yugi world himself, and he gets into a rivalry with the Chad guy, because it turns out that the Chad guy is actually an ancient triad mob king who was distantly related to Xiang Yu, Lu Bu, and mothafucking
Genghis Khan

or some other random ass shit like FU Manchu, that some racist ass mothafuck came up with off the top of his head.
Well Rei girl, and Batman were also supposed to kiss & have some steamy ass hot sex with each other during the movie, but I never got to see that part. (Yes I remained at the theater long after the lead star girl walked out of the screening.)
Why? There was this big ass farmer looking dude sitting a seat next to the lead star girl.
He was there with a girl, but I guess that was just his sister.
Why you may ask, because this big mothafucka tried to make moves on me.
He even put his bigass hands on my shoulder.
That's when my ninja speed counter reaction senses kicked in, and I automatically punched him in the face.
I was like
"What the fuck is wrong with you bitch. You gay or some shit! Get's the fuck on out of here."

That's when everybody started leaving the theater. Granted there wasn't many people left in the theater to begin with, because the Batman/Fushigi Yugi movie was fucking horrible as hell.
(Since this was the Wachowski bros. There were also some mandatory Fastfood restaurant pseudo philosophy French Man scenes that just went on forever, and ever, and ever, and we didn't even get the added benefit of a Monica Belluci make out scene.)
Well, anyway the big gay ass mothafucka I punched, just shrugged it off and was like
"What?, I wasn't doing anything."
I was like hell nah, so I finally walked out of the shitty ass movie.
Here's the problem though, since the girl I was with stormed off without me.
I had no idea where to go, because I completely forgot where the fuck she lived.
So I started walking back home.
I don't know what the fuck it was. It must've been open season night or some shit, but another gay ass mothafucka tried to come on to me.
Except this time he had slicked back hair, and he was average sized. About 6 ft, 165ibls or some shit.
Or at least I assumed so, because I knocked this mothafucka's teeth clean the fuck out with one fucking punch.
I sent his gay ass to the pavement. This is Concrete Brawlaz, bitch!

So I'm walking home, I'm walking straight into a landfill... and another gayass mothafucka tried to grab my nuts or some shit.
I was going to kick his ass too, but I was like ah fuck it, because I finally realized that I too was in my own movie.
It was "Land of the Dead", but replace the zombie's with gay ass mothafuckas.
So I was actually in a movie called
"Land of the Gays"
To those of y'all who already know how much Land of the Dead sucked ass.
Then you already know what's coming up.

Basically Land of the Dead was political satire of the Bush regime, and it also served as a social political message about how you shouldn't treat zombies like shit. Even though they eat us humans, Eat girl's nipple rings out, eat our children, and they kill lesbians! I hate lesbians, because they don't screw men, but that's beside the point.
Why, in Romero's world Zombies are people too.
You could just imagine how absurd this concept got with Zombie's being replaced by Gays.
Just watch this clip I uploaded, but mentally replace all those fucking zombie with some of the gayest fruits who you have ever seen.

When Riley says "They're just looking for a place to live." Try to project him saying that about the Land of the living dead Gays.
There was probably even a gay equivalent of "Big Daddy" the zombie who lead the Zombie rebellion from Land of the dead as well, but I didn't stick around.
I woke up when I realized how fucked up the dream became.
I didn't want to be eaten out by a bunch of gay mothafuckas like what had happened to the people in Land of the Dead when the heroic zombies came to eat their brains out.

t(^o*)t In a nutshell what had happened was...
The beginning of my dream was really just the set up for a horror movie.
You know like how Michael Jackson's Thriller began at a movie theater? Same shit here.
Except you replace the dancing Zombies, with dancing Gay ass homosexuals.
Think YMCA, but with a murderous intent to get inside your pants.
The Batman Fushigi Yugi crossover movie directed by the Wachowski bros. was just a movie within a movie, that in itself was also part of a movie.
You know what this sounds like?
A parody of David Lynch's Inland Empire.
which was also a movie, inside a movie, inside another movie, that happened to be another movie, on top of a skit about some creepy ass rabbits, that also originated from another skit about an Asian girl and her friend that was later used in the movie except they replaced the asian girl with another Japanese girl who talks about her friend who had a hole in her vaginal wall. That said girl turned out to be blonde wigged Masuimi Max who had a monkey that took a shit everywhere (These are Lynch's words about that damn monkey, not mine.), but then that skit itself was also made into a movie.

Damn, I'm just glad I woke up before the Gay rebellion came over to where I reside, and started unleashing Gay ass Armageddon on us all.

This is no joke. I honestly did dream all this shit. Just a couple hours ago.
Damn, why can't I have a simple fucking dream where Tsubaki finally makes a new (R&B soul/Enka influenced) album for once?
I always have to dream this weird ass shit about Blonde midgets, murderous gays, & fine ass bitches like
Hoshino, Miku 星野美空 (Misora, whatever I don't care. She's hot that's all that matters.)

who turn out to be some insane underdground mob boss of the Peruvian/Brazilian faction of the Kinki (Osaka) prefecture.
It'd be nice to have a normal dream for once where I'm porking the hell out of her, rather than being car chased, about to get gunned down by the sexy ass beacth.

Whale Fuckers

Speaking of dreams, I used to have a dream where this annoying Black kid named Aaron Williamson would pop up, and I tried to beat him senseless.
All he would do is laugh back at me.
This kid is one of the main reasons why I dropped out of school. I would've got deported out of Japan had I stayed in school, and beat the living shit out of this fucka for being such a wannabe G.
He was a semi popular kid, and the fucker always tried to diss me, because he thinks I'm wannabe Black.
Look at me bitch. Do I look wannabe Black to you? Wannabe Italian maybe, but Black? Not really.
I speak the way I do, because I'm street. That has nothing to do with being Black at all. (You just see more trailer/ghettoe trash Blacks which is why you see such a disproportionate amount of them speaking & acting improper.)

What I really hated about this Aaron Williamson mother fucker. Is how he always hijacked my shit. He acted like a girl. He would spread false rumours about me & everything.
One time he got so afraid of my influence, because his younger bro invited me to hang out with them, in their crew called the Hot boys.
(Though realistically only I, and his younger bro could truly be considered hot. The rest were just "okay" looking, or straight up ugly like that wannabe G I'm taking shit about.)
Speaking of which "Hot boys" Come on that has to be the gayest ass name for a crew. Fuck that shit, I'd name it Tits & Ass, because that's what I want.

I eventually lost all my rep with the American kids in Iwakuni, because this buster wouldn't stop talking shit about me, and I wouldn't do anything back.
I never did anything back to this bitch made mothafucka, because I couldn't.
Most kids had a hard time believing that I had to make a pact with the principal before she could accept me back into school.
I actually broke the pact the first day I came to school.
So she threatened to expel me for good if I got into one more fight.
Hell most kids had a hard time believing that I was actually a 18/19 yr. old being enrolled into the 9th grade.
(It should be obvious imo. I was the only kid in school who looked "experienced".)

Well fuck it, I could see that I went nowhere with this gayass post.
I'll just say that I had the laugh of my life when I was told that the Aaaron Williamson punk is actually a Whale fucker. *He screws fat bloated white chicks.*
I'm like shit, for a punkass bitch who fronts like he has some mad game. he sure as hell stoops low to get some booty, HAHAH HAHAH HAH!

You don't ever see that shit with me, because I normally attract pretty women. Sure I attract a lot of fat chicks, underaged girls, & freaks too.
The difference is that I don't ever get involved, or intimate with them.
My standards are too high.
Some people even made awful rumours about how I screwed some of these freaks.
Obviously false, because anybody who knows me would know that I'm not exactly a flirt.
Me making out with some random ugly bitch is one of the last things that I'd ever do.
If I had many opportunities to fuck some extremely hot ladies.
Yet I chose not to do a single thing with them.
Then obviously I wouldn't be desperate enough to bag a fat chick either.
It didn't matter to me, because I'd get the last laugh whenever some bitch they were crushing on would hit on me. Right in front of their faces, hah take that.
You're better off sucking on your own dick, fags.

I've had it with these fuckin' Hamsters on a plane!

Since I randomly decided to start posting at this blog again.
I figure that I might as well repost several posts I've made at other blogs.
(I don't feel like taking the time to write some new posts for the time being. There's a lot I want to talk shit about, but so little time.)
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05 February 2009 @ 11:41 am
I've just noticed something about the dreams that I been having lately.
Most of them feature characters who are based off or look & act exactly like classmates I once had back in 7th grade & 8th grade.

Let me do a little role call of the fuckin' fools I keep seeing in my dreams.

7th grade (Caii)
Weird looking Puerto Rican chick with combed back hair, who's kinda hot
Hot Black chick with long curly hair. Possibly part Latina.
Blonde White chick geared up in Nike wind breakers.

8th grade (Vegas)
Big Irish dude I used to tag along with
Buzz cut White kid who's part Korean somewhere in his bloodline.
Fat checkoslovakian girl who was friends with the both of them. I tagged along with all three.

So this dream I just had today. (I didn't go to sleep until 6 in the morning, because I stayed up all night playing Nobunaga's Ambition.)
It basically started off with I hanging out with those White peepz listed in the 8th grade category. They were part of the alternative crowd. They were punks, rockers, whatever the hell they were. I don't care. I just know that I'm often grouped up with the alternative crowd. (Even the my style is overtly "gangsta" or "pimp".)
The moment I got into class. It seems that my teacher was actually an English teach I had the first time I went to 9th grade in Japan.
(I was forcibly dropped out the first time I attended 9th, and I dropped out again after I passed the 9th grade.)
I think the Teach's name was Ms. Wilson, or some shit. I don't give a fuck she was just a fat Black woman who all the kids seemed to like for some reason.

Well anyway I was sitting in the back along with the weird looking peurto rican chick, and Hot black girl with curly hair.
(I think I should add that I'm in these dreams as the person who I am now. That mothafucka you see in my LJ icon. I was classmates with these mothafuckas back when I still looked Chinkanese like this.)
They were doing some small talk with each other. I wasn't paying attention to what the fuck they were saying. It should be noted that both of them actually were friend's with each other in real life.

Ah wait a minute I just remembered that I was actually sitting a desk diagonally behind the White girl in Nike windbreakers, but then I decided to move to the back with the two hot chicks.
That white Nike girl was a short ass bitch, stuck up too. She kinda had that "classic" 50's look going on like Gwen Stefani, except you know Gwen's actually pretty. Gwen may have dabbled in hip hop, but at least she didn't dress the part.
Blah blah blah, long story short. The kids I knew during my 8th grade year decided to skip during class so I joined in.
(At the same time Kianna, The hot black girl was reading some shit for English class.)
Course since this is the me who I am now. I didn't exactly hang out with the 8th grade peeps who I once knew. Instead I cruised with them until we got out of campus, and then I split off on my own like the pure fucking badass I am. (or at least have been since the two times I enrolled into 9th grade.)

So what I do? Doing what I always do. Spying on mothafuckers gathering information & shit. Straight up reconnaissance bitch.
I was spying on the kids I ditched class with. Damn part-nah they were doing jack shit. I was like fuck, y'all call this fun?
I decided to go back to class where I saw the hot black chick crying, and her puerto rican friend trying to console her.
I walked up to them, and then pronounced a word that they were having trouble enunciating.
(Yeah, I know that's fucking racist, but I'm just recalling the dream as it happened.)
The hot black chick thanked me, and then she spoke to me as if we were down or some shit.
That's when I began to realize that this was a dream, because if I recall correctly. We never actually spoke to each other irl.
(Sounds like my story with most pretty chicks I had business with in my life.)

Kinda makes me wonder. Was this chick sorta attracted to me irl? It doesn't matter. I don't give a fuck.
The only part of the dream that I care about is at the end of it when that short ass Blonde White bitch dressed up like some G homie in her shitty ass nike wind breakers was all talking mad shit.
She was talking bullshit to a Black kid. Who I assume is supposed to be Chris from seasons 3 & 4 of Degrassi.
That Chris kid then moved to the back of the class where the hot Black & Puerto rican girls were chilling at.
I decided to playfully jump in the argument.
Then that Blonde bitch's attention turned toward me, and she started calling me a five yr. old.
I was like wtf? After having 5 or 6 dreams of this short ass bitch calling me a five yr. old I finally snapped, and I clocked the bitch.
I didn't slap her. I straight up punched her in the face. She kept talking shit when I punched her.
Shit was funny, because after all these dreams. I thought I was just hearing things, but it finally registered to me that some whore in a dream actually was calling me a five yr. old.

I retorted with "Who the hell are you calling a five yr. old. I'm the one who actually says something philosophical every now & then, and I'm also the guy people come to whenever they want advice. What the fuck do you do? You just bitch at everybody, you know what! fuck this shit!"
I then I punched her in the face, hah hah hah.
I then retorted "geah I know asians have a bad reputation for beating up women. (Especially Koreans.), but damn some bitches just need to get beat down, because they talk too much shit.
She kept saying that I wasn't even worth it. (In regards to her explaining wtf she means when she calls me a five yr. old.)

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I then woke up.............blah. What's funny is that nike girl actually was the bitch in real life. I always wanted to hit her, but I wasn't a bonafide badass yet. (I still cared about what others thought about me.)

3/14/09

Back again!

Finally back after a long ass hiatus.
If you read my post prior to this one then I'll start off by saying that I didn't get kicked out. I discovered my love for Soul music & ballads during that shit.
I was actually deciding between using Vox or this site when it comes to blog posts.
While Vox looks far more presentable in my opinion. Writing the actual posts there is complicated as hell.
I end up spending an hour or two just to type one post because adding images to a post & what not is way too much of a hassle at Vox.

In October 2008 I thought I finally decided on a career path only to be rudely awakened by my past that I couldn't get out of my head for 10 years.
Ultimately it lead to I remembering everything, unfortunately this led to I abandoning the career choice that I was about to embark on. (My initial goal was to prevent future Camellia's from fading into obscurity. Which was why I was considering entering the music biz as a promoter & producer.), and most of all I finally tied up loose ends that were always holding me back.
Bitch didn't speak back to me at all, but the message was loud & clear as she locked every single one of pages that she posts on.
I don't give a fuck though. She's fugly now, and she's no longer the same person I remember.
She's actually normal now.
Kinda funny though. Back then I was the nerd, and she was a fucking Hoe. (But sexy)
Now she's some generic ass bitch, and I'm just a fucking loser ass thug who lives in his mama's basement.

Shit happens.

BTW I've redone the blog, and renamed it as well.
Mourning Symphony just sounded way too gothic & pretentious.
I changed it to "Suite 16 Individual Responsibility".
The title is a actually numerology of one & six which means Individual Responsibility.
The full meaning of the title is actually "Retainers of Individual Responsibility."